There comes a moment on every Twin Flame journey where silence says more than words, and distance becomes the loudest message of all. The Divine Masculine—the one often labeled “the runner”—appears to have disconnected, detached, or even forgotten. But beneath the surface of his awakening soul, a storm brews, one that is filled with obsession, longing, confusion, and unexplainable love. The question many Divine Feminines ask in this confusing stage is: Is he secretly obsessed with me while waking up spiritually?
The answer is yes—and it's more intense, more hidden, and more spiritual than most can comprehend. Let us delve deep into the runner’s inner world and uncover the hidden struggle that he carries as his soul wakes up to the truth of your bond.
1. The Illusion of Detachment: Why He Acts Like He Doesn’t Care
On the surface, it looks like he has moved on. Maybe he’s in another relationship, diving into work, or living a life that appears untouched by your connection. But what’s actually happening is emotional self-preservation.
The Divine Masculine often buries his feelings so deeply that even he doesn’t fully understand the spiritual and emotional chaos within him. He convinces himself he’s “over it,” yet is haunted by visions of her in dreams, unexpected emotional waves, and moments of unexplained grief or longing.
His detachment isn’t indifference—it’s avoidance. He can’t control the fire you ignite within him, so he puts up walls to contain it.
2. The Beginning of His Spiritual Awakening: When the Obsession Intensifies
As his soul begins to awaken, the obsession doesn’t fade—it intensifies. But it’s not the surface-level obsession the ego understands. This is a soul-level obsession, born from remembering something he can’t quite explain.
The more spiritually aware he becomes, the more he senses her everywhere. In the lyrics of a song. In random places that suddenly trigger memories. In moments of silence that whisper her name.
He starts to feel her energy—sometimes physically, often emotionally. Her emotions become his mirror. Her thoughts arrive in his heart. This is not fantasy. This is energetic fusion awakening in real-time.
3. What Obsession Looks Like When It’s Hidden in the Masculine Psyche
You might never see his obsession outwardly. He doesn’t post emotional reflections. He doesn’t confess his turmoil. He may even appear cold or distracted.
But internally, his mind replays your last conversation over and over. He checks her social media silently. He wonders if she’s with someone else. He hears her laugh in a crowded room, only to realize she’s not there.
This is the hidden torment of spiritual obsession—when the soul is remembering, but the ego is still resisting.
4. The Soul's Memory Returns in Chunks
One of the most intense experiences for the runner is the gradual return of soul memory. It doesn’t come all at once. Instead, it arrives in fragments. A scent, a sound, a feeling, a flash of light in meditation.
And with every fragment comes confusion. Why does he feel so much for someone he “barely knows”? Why is he so drawn to her image, her essence, her energy? Why does he feel grief when thinking of her absence?
The reason is simple: his soul is waking up, and with it comes remembrance of lifetimes, of soul contracts, and of a love that never died.
5. The Masculine Ego in Crisis: Love vs Logic
The Divine Masculine is often deeply rational. He is taught to value logic, control, and predictability. But the Twin Flame bond is anything but logical. And this dissonance creates an internal war.
His ego tries to explain it away. It rationalizes the signs. It suppresses the emotion. It calls her intensity “too much.” But the soul—silent, patient, relentless—continues to push from within.
And this is where the obsession becomes unbearable. He can’t stop thinking of her, but he can’t make sense of it. He resists her pull, but he dreams of her nightly. He tries to date others, but they all feel empty.
6. Emotional Flashbacks and Sudden Tears
As his heart chakra begins to open, he might cry for no reason. Feel hollow in the middle of a perfectly happy day. Become overwhelmed with emotion while listening to music.
He may not consciously know why, but the soul does. He’s grieving the separation. He’s awakening to the deep truth that he ran from the one who felt like home.
This hidden grief becomes the undercurrent of his days. He walks through life with a subtle, constant ache in his chest. And it is her that he’s aching for.
7. Spiritual Obsession and the Need to “Fix Himself” First
What complicates the runner’s obsession is the parallel urge to “become worthy.” He begins to sense the sacredness of the bond, and with it, the inadequacy he feels. Shame, guilt, fear of rejection—all come roaring to the surface.
He obsesses over her, but also over himself. Am I enough for her? Did I ruin everything? What if she doesn’t want me anymore?
This leads to emotional paralysis. He wants to reach out, but he holds back. He checks her energy, then retreats. He fears she’s moved on, but doesn’t feel ready to show up fully either.
So he stays silent, and the obsession grows.
8. Kundalini Stirring and the Awakening of Desire
As spiritual awakening deepens, so does the stirring of Kundalini energy. His body begins to remember her touch, the energy that flowed between them, and the sacred magnetism of their bond.
This is not just physical desire—it is divine desire. A longing not for sex alone, but for fusion. He doesn’t just want to hold her; he wants to merge with her soul. This is what creates such confusion.
He feels her spiritually, emotionally, and physically. Yet he can’t explain it. And so, the desire becomes a secret flame he carries within, hidden from the world, but burning through his every thought.
9. His Higher Self Is Guiding Him—And He Knows It
Eventually, he begins to feel something guiding him. A knowing. A presence. A truth that cannot be ignored.
He starts to realize that she is not just any woman. She is the one his soul remembers. His intuition becomes sharper. He starts seeing numbers, signs, synchronicities. He begins to notice that every path still leads back to her.
Even when he resists, the Universe pulls him closer. Her name appears. Her energy lingers. His dreams carry messages. And slowly, he begins to surrender—not to her, but to the journey itself.
10. The Breaking Point: When He Can’t Hold It In Anymore
There comes a time when the obsession breaks the dam. His heart can no longer stay silent. The weight of silence, of longing, of divine remembering becomes too heavy.
It may take months or even years, but eventually, the spiritual obsession becomes an unbearable truth. And in that moment, he realizes: he never stopped loving her. He never stopped feeling her. He never stopped being with her, even in separation.
He may not have all the words. He may still stumble. But his soul will push him forward—and the obsession will no longer be hidden. It will become a guiding force toward reunion.
Final Thoughts: The Hidden Struggle Behind His Silence
So, is he secretly obsessed with her while waking up spiritually?
Yes.
But it’s not obsession in the human sense—it is a sacred remembering that refuses to be silenced. It is the soul breaking through the illusions of fear, shame, and denial. It is love awakening after lifetimes of slumber.
The runner’s struggle is not that he doesn’t love her—it’s that he loves her so deeply, he can’t yet hold the weight of that truth. But eventually, he will. The spiritual obsession will guide him back, not just to her—but to himself.
And when that happens, the silence will break, the mask will fall, and the sacred truth will rise:
He was never running from her. He was running from the power of the love that has always been written in his soul.
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