We crossed paths while I was in the 10th grade and he was in the 11th. Unexpectedly, that year I decided to join ASB. It was a sudden urge, as I had never shown interest in it before.
I had caught glimpses of him before we went to ASB camp, but my shyness prevented me from speaking to him. Even on the day of our departure, I hadn't mustered the courage to approach him. Honestly, I hadn't paid much attention to him at all. However, it was on the second day of ASB camp, after I performed my signature song (T-Pain's 'Let Me Buy you a Drank') and we exchanged twin grins, that we finally interacted.
I developed a huge crush on him. He was the complete opposite of me – a surfer and volunteer lifeguard with fair skin, bright blue eyes, blonde hair, and a tall, tanned physique. Meanwhile, I had dark skin that grew darker in the summer sun, short stature, brown eyes, black hair, and, to top it off, I couldn't swim. We, along with 11 other kids, ventured away from the main group for an activity, laughing and giggling back to camp. I cherished every second of it. However, the bombshell dropped when I found out he had a girlfriend!
That day was the worst in my life. When I met her a few hours later, I complimented her, calling her incredibly pretty and stating how lucky he was to have her. It was all a facade. Inside, I was deeply saddened, and from that moment onward, I was plagued by excruciating stomach aches. I could barely function, struggling to eat, and sleep became the only respite. Unbeknownst to me at the time, these pains were connected to our growing separation. The agony was only slightly alleviated when he, perhaps feeling guilty, paid me a compliment, touching my hair and expressing admiration for my hairstyle.
After that, we had no further interactions and left the camp. During school, we rarely crossed paths. It was as if my inner self knew that connecting with him would only bring more pain. That school year turned into absolute hell, with everything going wrong. However, one moment stood out. During Christmas, we played a game of White Elephant where each person expressed adoration for someone else. Little did I know, my inner self was crying out to communicate with his 3D self, so I poured out my feelings in a speech to another person.
Ironically, that person barely considered me a friend. Later, I realized I was expressing those emotions to my twin flame, vividly remembering him standing not far from the person I was talking to.
Our separation began after Christmas when he left ASB, and when the school year ended, I left the school altogether. We spent our 11th and 12th-grade years apart, with him still in a relationship, while I constantly searched for someone to love.
I felt like I had someone, but I hadn't put enough effort into pursuing them. My 3D self had completely forgotten about my twin flame, and I had no recollection of him during that time. I became desperate, latching onto anyone I found slightly attractive.
However, my 3D self had a distorted perception of who my twin flame truly was. I was searching for him in other people. Despite having numerous crushes, I attempted love three times, and each time I faced rejection. It shattered me every single time, causing my heart to chip away. Although my outer self was unaware of the reasons, my inner self understood that my life was falling apart. I distanced myself from God and turned to drugs, which ironically became my salvation, although it also led to my downfall and taught me valuable life lessons. I had to confront all the past hurts while under the influence, as they started manifesting as physical pain in my 3D body – severe back pain, shoulder pain, unstable right knee, migraines, excruciating period pain, stomach issues, and constant teeth clenching.
It was during Mercury Retrograde that I finally got my act together. I spent countless hours reflecting and identifying the events that caused each pain, gradually freeing myself from them. However, a lingering feeling remained – the need to love someone. While healing, I had convinced myself that I wanted to remain single. But once my body felt better, the idea of a single life crumbled, and that feeling of loving someone returned.
By accident, I stumbled upon the concept of twin flames while watching a recommended pick-a-card reading on YouTube. This led me to energetically connect with a soul mate who unfortunately had an addiction to tantric sex, used without consent. I still don't have all the answers regarding that situation. However, two months later, his face suddenly popped into my mind. The boy I had met in my 10th-grade year, someone my 3D self had completely forgotten but my inner self had held onto tightly.
The only problem was, I couldn't remember his name! I scoured my mind, but nothing surfaced. All I could recall was the image of his smiling face, and I knew, I felt, that he was the one. Memories of those three days at ASB camp came flooding back, and I realized how much I missed him. So, my inner self gave me the bright idea to search our old ASB group chat. Miraculously, I still remembered the name of the app, and fortunately, the group chat had not been deleted.
I scrolled through months of texts until I found his name, and it felt like a trip down memory lane. Instantly, I knew that was the name I had been desperately seeking. Without hesitation, I searched for him on Instagram, and there he was!
However, I still had some reservations. Instead of feeling excited and happy to meet him, I felt nervous. My understanding of love was still distorted and somewhat inverted. There were certain aspects of our relationship that I hadn't fully come to terms with or identified.
So, I took a brief period of unfollowing him, using that time to learn more about him, myself, and our relationship. Through twin telepathy and downloads from my inner self and higher guidance, I gained the clarity I needed. As if it were a reward for the hard work I had done myself, he followed me back. I was thrilled beyond measure, jumping around in joy for minutes, thanking God for reuniting us!
I couldn't wipe the smile off my face. After a month of admiring his pictures and feeling irresistibly drawn to him, I received confirmation from God that it was the right time to text him, accompanied by an affirmation. This was the man I was destined to pursue!
And he responded!
Although he is still in a relationship, things are rocky (thanks to subtle downloads I received through twin telepathy). I have cherished every moment of this unpredictable journey and now I'm even more excited than ever to meet him again, fully prepared and ready. Since the start of September, I have been noticing sequences, further fueling my anticipation.
Now, I’m just waiting for God to bring us back together!
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